A Letter to Antonio Santiago- Angel Baby

Here is the other email I got from angel baby Antonio's mom. A sweet letter to her baby..:

Antonio Santiago.. my dearest baby angel,

You’re on my mind today.. I was looking at the calendar & you would be 4 years & 1 month old today.

I could only imagine & wonder what you’d look like.. more like me or your daddy?
How you’d behave.. would you be independent, dependent, respectful, bratty?
Would you be shy or outgoing? Love to learn & explore, love to play baseball like your dad,

 want to watch Disney movies with me, or would you be entirely unique?

 A combination of mine and your daddy's up bringing that allowed you to develop your own personality & preference.

Are you really looking down on me like they say? Can you really hear me when I pray & cry? Does God deliver messages? 

Is that you pulling on my heart strings? If it is, wow baby boy! You are incredibly strong!!

Today I will cry for your absence, I will cry for the unknown.. keeping in mind, “everything happens for a reason.”

Even though I only held you once, I love you as if I've known you my entire life.

 I love you & it grows more and more with every breathe I take, every blink, every tear, 

every laugh, every word, syllable, sound, thought, heart beat, everything & anything.

Rest in peace, my darling son. I love you, Antonio Santiago. Siempre y para siempre chiquito.
Your mommy & daddy hope to meet you one sweet day, God willing. 

-January 20, 2009, I gave birth to an angel.

<3 Elizabeth C. Leyva

A mother's love never dies.